Continue to talk about happy things

Good afternoon lovely people, if you’re still with me I thank you, tis more than I deserve.  Lately I have been making life far far more complicated than perhaps it needs to be, with a lot of important changes/stuff going on, in my life situation and in my mind.  Getting to grips with everything is proving harder than I expected, which I find strangely amusing given that I’ve done/lived through some tough things in the last few years and all of this shouldn’t really be challenging me so much.  Anyhoo, if you haven’t heard already, the good news is that the lovely people at my temp job have decided to keep me as a real person, with actual money and plenty of interesting stuff to do.  I move over to contract in a few weeks (eek, better sign it!) and am looking forward to that bit more stability. 

From the blog of artist Lisa Congdon, check it out, she’s amazing (thanks Michelle, you show me all the best stuff)

So now I need to have a cup of tea, clear some of the clutter out of my brain, straighten a few pictures, and tidy the mountains of randomness that I’ve been building around me, so that I can relax, enjoy and stop having meltdowns at people who really don’t need that right now.  I’ve had a fantastic last few weeks of friends and fun stuff that I can’t wait to tell you about, plus the ongoing backlog of photos to share.  So here it is, a new leaf, I’m turning it.  Hope to see you back here soon!

I have often walked…down this street before

Sometimes it feels like I’m sleepwalking through life.   This last week or two I’ve been unable to shake off feelings of bone deep tiredness and what’s-the-pointness.  I can talk sense to myself, I can see fixes for the problem, but actually making the first move in the game is hard work.  Of all the things I’ve repeatedly instructed myself to do, I have only ticked one off successfully this week, but it is a significant milestone for me.  I rode my bike to and from work for the first time, and not only that, I also took it on a jaunt round Tiergarten and to the shops.  It’s a good way to travel when the sun is shining, but country mouse that I am, I do find negotiating my way through the traffic and unfamiliar roads more than a little terrifying.  Practice needed, that’s the ting.

Anyway, this week I had my last oh-my-god-it’s-too-early class for a while, I get a 7 week break (woo!).  Happily the class went well and I had the bonus of being able to go home for a nap before my afternoon class.  Such joy.  Perhaps it opened my eyes a little wider because I found myself noticing lots of unfamiliar little bits and bobs on my very familiar walk home from the station.  For example, I have wandered past this shutter plenty of times.

I always say hello to the boy and his space dog, but the scruffy tagging over his face has always dissuaded me from taking a photo of it before

but this time it seemed a little different.  The strange thing is that I can’t remember exactly how it was before so I can’t decide how much of it, if any, is new.  It might be the big black letters, the man in red or the cut&go box and tag, which I rather like.

I find it very frustrating that I can’t remember in enough detail, my shocking memory is without doubt one of the most irritating and at times saddening things in my life.  However, I’m fairly sure that I wouldn’t have forgotten this little guy who is diligently painting the mucky wall so he must be new.  He’s bottom left in the first picture, can you see him?  He’s tiny and blends in well but when you get up close and personal he’s pretty fantastic.

The truth is that taking the time to notice all the little things that make the world just a little more interesting really does make  life a little more fun.